A meeting between Apostle Paul and Jesus

Hailie Kim

05.24.2010 Noon prayer 12:21pm

(I wanted to know deeply about Apostle Paul. Jesus called Apostle Paul’s spirit, and I came to realize more deeply about Apostle Paul as I talked to him with Jesus.)

(Prayer: I asked Apostle Paul. I asked him what the situation was like and how he felt when he met Jesus as a dazzling light on the road to Damascus.)

Paul: “It was as if the heaven and earth were being formed. The entire world was covered in light, and it felt as if everything that has happened was disappearing into that light and as if a new world has come. Following the Lord’s voice, I walked into that light. At that moment, I realized. When the Lord revealed himself as the Lord, all my beliefs and thoughts up to that point crumbled down, and I realized thoroughly that all of them had been wrong. I trembled at the undeniable love of the Lord. Through the dazzling light that made me unable to open my eyes, Jesus let me feel the love towards me and the love towards mankind.

Yes, it was love. The key point of the destined meeting with Jesus in Damascus was love. The moment I was blinded by the powerful light, the intense feeling of love came into me as a fiery spark, and that love began to grow. After that, I begged the Lord in tears for three days without eating or sleeping well. Because the Lord had closed my physical eyes, I could not see anything of this world. Instead, I felt so clearly the spiritual phenomena that the Lord was showing me. I could see very clearly with my eyes the Lord climbing up Golgotha carrying the cross, the Lord’s face covered in blood under the crown of thorns, and the Lord’s eyes watching and pitying the poor sinners even though it was hard for Him to open the swollen eyes. I clearly saw the Lord when He was praying to the Heavens on the cross for the last time, when He resurrected after three days and appeared before His disciples, and when He was ascending to the heavens again. From my eyes, tears were flowing endlessly, and I was agonized thinking how I could possibly repent for all my sins.

“Lord, I am the sinner of sinners. Why do you show me all these things?” Then Jesus told me that He loves me. “Paul, I love you.”

(Paul) “How could someone like me dare to receive Your love? Why do You say that You love a sinner like me?”

(Jesus) “Paul, do not doubt My love. My Father’s love and My love cover all the numerous sins of the world. Love is the completion of salvation. The reason why you persecuted Me and My disciples was because of ignorance, and you especially are a person who has worked hard to be saved. I know that you have been struggling to find something that is absolute and perfect. There is nothing that is absolute and perfect in this world. Only My Father’s Word through Me will lead you to perfect and absolute truth. From now on, do according to the way I lead you.”

(Paul) “Lord, now I believe that You are the Lord. Until the day I die, I will live repenting for all the sins that I’ve committed before You. Lord, but what can a sinner like me, who has so many sins, do for You? I am the sinner of sinners.”

(Jesus) “Let’s write a new history together. Let’s make the history by you becoming My lips, becoming My body, and delivering and recording My words. Because the time given to Me was so short, I could not preach the gospel on this earth completely. The history of cross urged My way. But My Father’s will that is promised for this earth will surely be fulfilled. Therefore, I will lift you up, use you as My body, and continue this history. So become Mine. First I will send you My disciples, so learn the Word that I preached when I was on the earth, and also learn directly from Me in spirit.”

(Paul) “But Lord, how could I receive and preach Your word? I don’t know anything.”

(Jesus) “I will personally teach you and guide you. Put forth strength to meet Me everyday and to love Me more each day. Seek and call on Me everyday, and ask to hear My voice. I will be with you in a deep and quiet place. I will be with you at times on a lonely path in a desert and also among the crowd.”

(Paul) “Lord, let me ask you one more thing. You have disciples. Is there a reason why you came to me when you have your disciples?”

(Jesus) “My disciples, too, are My body and My history. I am also with them in spirit. However, they are people who believed in Me by seeing Me. You will become the ancestor of the numerous descendants who will believe in Me without seeing Me. I have already told My disciples. I told them that those who believe in Me by seeing Me are blessed, but those who believe without seeing Me are even more blessed. In the future, as this gospel spreads to the ends of the earth, numerous people will believe in Me passionately without even being able to see Me. You are their first person. I will deliver My love to them through you. Because I love them so much, I will prepare Heaven for them, and I will have them know clearly that I will come back. Ultimately, it is love. I came because of love, I died on behalf of them because of love, and I came to you like this because of love. So Paul, don’t be so sad. I hope that through your grief you would realize My heart even more deeply and become My body. I love you. Let’s learn diligently and fulfill the will. I will be with you. Please seek Me and live as My body everyday.”